Paperwork

I knew there would be a lot of paperwork, but sheesh.  Having to fill out a 20+ page survey about your life is daunting to say the least.  Not to mention background checks, police checks, medical updates.  I'm worried we won't pass.  That something will come up saying I'm not good enough.  Maybe every anticipating adopting couple feels this way, how can you not?  Your life is being examined and combed through and it makes one feel exposed and vulnerable.  I don't like that feeling.  Right now it's causing no end of anxiety and my normal attitude of facing this stuff head on is gone. I feel deflated. Am I creating a self-fulfilling prophecy of failure before I even begin? Only time will tell I suppose.  For the mean time, I trudge onwards and upwards.  It ain't over 'til I sing.