Selling Ourselves

Today I finally finished all the print information for our family profile.  Not far into the thing I realized in many ways it's a marketing campaign.  We want to be truthful to who we are but at the same time we want to relate to potential birth parents so they are willing to pick us.  Now that it's done I can breath easier that we've checked one more thing off our list.  Now we only have to submit pictures to go with the print version so our agency's media department can put together a stunning profile that best suits our family . . . supposedly.  At least we get a final say in the profile because they will send us a proof before it's ready to go.  Our next step after the pictures is the video profile and then the home study review and then I think we're done with all the agency stuff.

As far as the home study goes, we have our home visit scheduled for the 5th and then it's just compiling the rest of the paperwork they need. Right now we're waiting on our FBI background checks and then I think the last of it is done.  I can't believe we're almost to the point of being ready to go active and be shown to birth parents. 

It still seems surreal that we're actually close to achieving our goal of becoming parents.  But happening it is.  I've finally become excited about buying baby clothes and furniture.  I no longer look at pregnant women with hurt and anger and that makes me feel so much freer than I've felt in a long time.  I think that feeling more than anything has given me the peace of mind knowing that adoption is definitely the right choice for us.  I've come to terms with the fact that I'll never be pregnant but that's OK because I want to be a Mommy more and adoption is going to make that happen for me.  I hope I've set realistic goals in our wait time before we're matched so that I don't go crazy.  If we're active with our agency by September I will give us until our anniversary in April before I question our choices in regards to our profile.

So I think, before bed tonight, I'm going to treat myself to looking at cute baby furniture and maybe even indulge in buying some gender neutral clothing items. You know, onsies, bibs and the like.  I feel like I deserve it. :)